I am in the beginning stages of enlightenment...and not in the literal sense or even the glow-in-the-dark sense. I am merely more consciously aware of the religious lies I've been fed for the last twenty years. The enchantment and contentment have been removed and it is as though I am standing in a giant, empty room, all the familiarity stripped away. My life now is at best a blank canvas for creating truth, honor, justice, and love in the measures it should have always been. I am disappointed in myself for never questioning, just simply accepting. And now I question everything, feeling betrayed by the forgery of faith and my own sense of understanding.
A whirlwind of new knowledge is deconstructing my existence, one paradigm at a time...
The more I love and need the people in my life, the more I fear them choosing apart from me. I must destroy a lifetime of barriers around my heart. Not everyone who says they love me or offers their hand in friendship is going to leave me for selfish ambition. I am worthy of their love and attention and I am no longer bound by deceit.
And this is just the first day of enlightenment....
Wonderfully said. I am glad that you have people that will walk with you into dark places with small candles or fucking huge torches to keep the light going into places its needed! You have a future ahead of you that we are all waiting with anticipation to see friend!
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