It's been 365 days. 365 sunsets have slipped away into the fading horizon...8760 hours have lapsed since you smiled and felt the air dancing in your lungs. I still remember the phone call from your sweet Karah. Such a brave girl she is, of which you can take the full credit. She carries the weight of your love in her smile.
I think of you so often, it occasionally surprises me. Not one person immersed in my world has seen every facet of my personality...but you were the one who came the closest. Each day I ruffle the hair of my precious Jacob and I remember you and all the valuable lessons you taught me. You were always my warrior...always motivating me to gain more knowledge and embrace the love swimming in my chest.
I suppose what I loved the most and perhaps miss the most was your nomadic spirit. You were never afraid to just pack up and relocate, try something new. See a new sunset, camp under a tree. I have stacks of photos from your adventures. Remember the picture wall? The journey? I think I would have walked in tandem with you all of my days, sharing stories, whispering the miracles of Jesus...absorbing his affection and acceptance. You and me friend. Forever.
No one have I missed more or longed to see again the way that I long for you. I feel the memory of your embrace, hear your encouragement each time I pick up a paintbrush or laugh with my children. You were my arbiter of truth and justice. Now I must restructure and begin anew.
365 days without you and a multitude still yet reached.
How I love you....
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