...I could really use a wish right now...
My bestie, Lady Amanda, is such a wise soul, though she may not know it. She sees the world in methods I have yet to discover. So hopeful, so optimistic...even in battles of worry and discontentment...she can scourge through the murky shit the rest of us would drown in...and find the sunshine... Yesterday, we were having one of our many chats and she simply asked, "What do you wish for?" When I hesitated she gave the most eloquent reply...She wished for her husband to find and imbue a ministry that he believes in and be embraced with ardent appreciation; for God to clarify how she is to use her talents in ceramics and jewelry-making (because her level of skill is otherworldly); for me to find a place of welcoming safety and time to paint or teach or whatever whim crosses my path; for Mikey and Zander to be fully loved and healed in heart, mind, body, and spirit; for us all to be together...
If I had a wish....
....it would be....
To find love...pure, unadulterated, romantic, whimsical, gushing, giggly, intense love... I find intrinsic significance in sharing my life with another person...one whose face brings a smile upon mine, whose touch both ignites passion and soothes anxieties. Someone to walk beside...to hold hands with...to breathe with....do laundry with :)
To paint...my soul is awakened and challenged each time my fingers trace the lines of a paintbrush or graze the edges of a blank canvas. Endless possibilities. A cataclysmic paradigm shift in my heart with every blending of magical hues.
To teach...I have been teaching for ten years...wow, how the time has swiftly moved, transforming me and opening doors I never quite expected. I have found that no matter how many steps I take to rebuke this career path, I inevitably return. There is no escaping it. I'm learning to accept that this is the true calling on my life...
To be with my sweet Amanda, her sweet Harley, Mikey and his precious son, Zander. My family...bound together, no matter the distance that temporarily separates us.... To be near them is almost intoxicating. I long for Harley to have peace of mind and a rested spirit. He works endlessly, loving people in the depths of his soul...seeking rescue, justice, mercy. I plead for Amanda to discover the bountiful creativity resting in the tips of her fingers....to see the beauty we witness each time a fleck of sunlight washes upon her eyes. For her and her faithful husband to no longer be captive to jobs that weigh like fetters upon wings. I seek for Mikey to rediscover the love his heart aches for...in a wife, friend, and eternal companion...that his relationship with Zander would flourish and the two of them would be a force of righteousness. I hope that Zander always remembers the sacrifices his father made, and feels every ounce of Mikey's abounding love.
I wish for us to be in proximity...always. Simply living, simply loving....
Holy Father...can I pretend airplanes are like shooting stars....because I could use a wish right now...
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